Tuesday, February 14, 2012

The Numbers Trap

Dear Ones:

I'll be honest with you. I am struggling right now. The news about Mercy's bed really disappointed me. Plus this whole waiting for the judge to make a decision on the appeal for Big Sister is getting so old. I just want to be done. I am sick to death of appeal processes. I just want to be done.

So in lieu of my disappointment and frustration I thought I would write about something positive. I know my God has it all under control even if I have no understanding of the manner in which it all plays out right now. I am also thankful he allows me my emotions, I mean walking with the Lord is a relationship. My relationship with God is real and I get to be my authentic self with my heavenly father and he shapes me and molds me through it all.

So today I want to write about numbers. I guess another weak area for me is numbers. How so? Well I want to reach people with my writing. I truly believe it is part of my calling. I am currently doing a bible study on my own for writers. The devotional this morning written by an editor for a christian publication really pricked me in this area. Here is a quote from the devotion, you can fill in whatever your own personal calling is and get the same message:

"Writing is a calling from God, and a writer is serving God whether she writes an article that 300,000 people read or a best seller that one million people read, or a church newsletter that twelve people read. As long as it blesses people and is used by God, it is no less a calling."

As I read these words the Lord brought to my mind something that happened just last week. A woman found my blog and let me know how some of my blog posts really spoke to her and moved her emotionally. She also has special needs adopted children and was able to relate to pieces of our story.

I really can't tell you how much it blessed my heart to read what she had to say, on so many levels. I know what it is like to feel alone as you raise special needs children. So few understand the emotional and physical strain it can cause at times. You can feel so isolated. It was satisfying to think I in fact was used by God and it was a confirmation to my calling.

So I am surrendering this whole numbers thing to my Jesus. I may never reach the masses, but I trust that what the Father has entrusted to me with my story and my love to write it down that He in fact will use me.

Mercy's Bed

Dear Ones:

Just heard back that medicaid denied Mercy's bed. So now we have to go through the appeal process. Prayers appreciated.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Weight Watchers

Good Morning Dear Ones:

I have a few moments before my day gets going and the world of therapies fills my time. Last Monday Eric and I started weight watchers. I have to say I am totally excited about it. I don't have a ton of weight to lose but there are some extra pounds that I have accumulated over the years and the older I get I can not seem to get rid of them no matter how much I exercise.

Here are some things I like about it. I feel like for the first time I really can control my food intake. There is an app for your smart phone that makes it so simple to keep track even on the go. What I like most is I feel like it is balanced. There really are no restrictions. You are even allowed treats as long as you stay within your point range. Eric was successful in the past losing a good deal of weight on a low carb diet but has since then regained what he lost. I just don't think it is a lifestyle diet, at least not for us.

We are doing it all online because lets face it we don't need another meeting in our schedule. That flexibility works well for us. My most favorite part about it all is the variety available. There are tons of yummy recipes online and they have even passed the test in the kid department. So it really works well for a family because even the kids like the meals. They just don't have to watch serving sizes for points. I just have to multiply the recipes to feed our herd. Plus you can log your activity each week and exchange activity points for more food. I like that a lot!  Plus there is a variety of foods like fruits and veggies that are zero points so you can eat as much as you want.

After our first week I have seen some progress too which is totally motivating. It may be slow but I think it will finally get both of us where we want to be and be a lifestyle to keep us there.

On a side note. Our case for Big Sister has an annual review tomorrow. It would be the best Valentines gift ever if a decision could be made and we could also see some progress there. Plus we are still waiting on the news about Mercy's bed if you could keep these things in prayer for us.

Have a wonderful day Dear Ones, "May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace." Numbers 6:24-26
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