It is just one of those nights where I can't sleep. I was lying in bed and my mind was occupied with musings. I started thinking about my sweet girls. It pains me a great deal when I think about their diagnosis of fetal alcohol syndrome. The symptoms and struggles are all evident. Mercy was never in the situation that her issues could be a result of environment. Our home is the only home she has ever been in. It is heartbreaking to me, to think, F.A.S is not something you can "good parent" out of a child.
One of the main reasons our hearts were so pulled to adoption, I believe, was the desire to be good parents to someone who desperately needed that roll filled in their lives.
I think parenting wounded kids so much of the time can really cause parents to doubt their skills. Or even make you feel like you don't have any skills. The satisfaction of progress or success so much of the time can elude you. You want to see your child do well in life. To thrive, be successful, flourish and turn out well.
I know the Lord has told me to pray and believe BIG for my girls. I know as much as I love them He loves them more. So I started thinking what would He diagnose my girls with. This is what came to mind.
A - Almighty's
There are some things about my God, that I just know deep down in the core of my being to be true. Let me share a few. At the top of the list is He is redeemer. He can not be in a story where redemption is not part of the plot. I also know he is the God of Hope. Every ending he writes ends in hope. And finally I know he always has a plan. So standing on these absolutes, my girls... His girls... are just in the preface of a beautiful story. The Almighty's story. It will come to completion. It will be fulfilled. And you know what, it will be amazing!
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
"He who was seated on the throne said, I am making everything new... Revelations 21:5
"For I know the plans I have for you (Mercy and Jubilee) declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith..." Hebrews 12:2
I'm thankful tonight that I get to be a main character in this story. To be continued...