Not sure how many of you are still out there. I know I have been MIA for some time now. I guess we have just been adjusting to being a family of 9. The adjustment comes with 28 therapy appointments a month and much prayer and searching for dealing with our little ones special needs, which include cerebral palsy, feeding and sensory difficulties, fetal alcohol syndrome, and attachment disorder. All I can say is NOT easy.
It is so sad to me that our little ones had things stacked against them in life before they even took their first breaths. FAS is NO JOKE. It is lifelong brain damage and comes with lifelong struggles. Attachment disorder is no walk in the park either.
I have been discouraged some because so much of the information out there on these issues brings little HOPE. In fact the picture painted is very bleak. So I guess it is one of my HOPES and missions in this new year to find HOPE. I have to believe my God is bigger than these diagnosis and there just has to be HOPE. That which was meant for evil, I have to trust that He will turn it around for good! Who knows maybe one day I will be a resource of HOPE for others who will walk a similar path.
I am also HOPING that this will be the year we get to move to the other side of things. That adoption will be a reality. Baby Girls appeal hearing went our way and we are waiting to see if there will be another appeal or if we will finally get to move to adoption. In February we have our termination hearing for Big Brother and Big Sister. I am HOPING these little ones will have our last name, be forever ours, and have a chance in life. Redemption.
I HOPE to continue to see my boys become the best versions of themselves. Who God made them to be. Honestly I could not be more proud of the persons they are. They are just delightful people and my heart swells at the thought of each of them.
I HOPE my husband and I will find more time with our Lord and each other. We have huge responsibilities and refreshment is just necessary.
I HOPE to find some time for exercise. I HOPE to find more time to improve in my photography passion. I HOPE to read more. I HOPE to shine for Jesus reflecting His love. I HOPE to grow in my precious relationships. I HOPE to forgive hurts that are so hard to let go of and be free. I HOPE for a vehicle that fits our family.
The list could go on and on. Simply put I am putting my HOPE in HIM. We will see where he takes us.
"I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you HOPE and a good future."