One Year ago today I walked into the NICU to meet Baby Girl. I just could not believe the call had finally come. I was on my way. So much excitement inside of me. Yet equally matched with caution. She was so beautiful. I thought I would sob my head off when I saw her for the first time but I just couldn't. Not that she wasn't precious... I just didn't have that "she's mine" experience.
As she came home both Eric and I had somewhat of a guard up. It didn't take long though to fall completely head over heals in love with her.
I finally had my sob moment when our dear friends Fritz and Andrea, who have completely stood by us every step of the journey, came by to meet her for the first time.
Fritz brought his guitar and sang worship songs over her and I just lost it. Every guard I had in place just crumbled.
This girl melts my heart. I am just done for her. She makes my heart smile. All of us are that way....totally smitten.
I still have not had the "she's mine" moment and we continue to hope that one day we will. Ultimately I know that she is His and He loves her more than I do...so I continue to place my trust in Him.
Thanks for staying the journey with us, I know it has been long. She is beyond worth it... hoping one day to introduce "our daughter" to everyone.