Well, I do have some news to share. Not the fantastic news I continue to hope I will one day share with all of you, but good news none the less. Last Thursday night during Zion's birthday party my cell phone rang. The ringtone was the one I have given to our social worker so I don't drive myself crazy every time the phone rings.
Needless to say my heart started racing and I began to think Zion was not going to be the only one receiving a gift that night.
Our worker began by asking me if Eric and I would ever consider respite care? This took me off guard because we never really even thought about it before. She explained that another foster family with a baby boy needs respite care from July 3rd - July 17th. I told her I would need to talk to my guys and get back to her.
After hanging up the phone and digging down deep not to cry, I went back to the party and waited until I could talk with my guys. Everyone was in agreement to do this. So we will have a temporary new family member next month. I asked when I told her yes if we would still be notified when a baby girl was in need and she assured me that our family was number one on her list when that was the case, even if the little guy is still with us.
So we will get a taste of loving and leaving. I am continuing to trust that this whole thing is not about me and ask forgiveness when I so easily slip into the mentality that it is. May God be glorified.