Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Conflicted Emotions

Dear Ones:

So many factors have kept me from my blog lately. First and foremost has been the care of baby girl. She keeps me on my toes to say the least and I love every minute of it. Taking care of a preemie is so involved. Second, has just been the vast array of emotions I have been feeling. One minute, I am flooded with so much gratitude that she is here. Then next I feel like this is harder than waiting for a call in some ways. Now I have something to lose and that is an incredibly hard struggle for me.

The first visitation was interesting. Mom showed up too intoxicated to be allowed to visit. Dad was very sweet with her which I did not expect to witness. I have visitations scheduled for every Wednesday. Today was cancelled due to the fact that birth parents did not confirm. I can not say that makes me sad :)

Tomorrow her worker will be coming to the house to visit her. Please pray for that if you do not mind.

I so wish I could share pictures on the blog but I can not post online. She is soooooooooooo beautiful!

So far a relative has not come forward to petition for custody. Our states number one goal is return home, then relative placement and lastly an adoption plan. If it comes to that it is at least a year or so process.

I would very much appreciate your continued prayers for our family.



  1. How very exciting to have baby girl there with you, do wish we could see pictures! Those weekly visits are tough, but very important to show the state the kind of care she would receive if she was in the birth parents care.
    What a blessing she is!

  2. Thanks for the prayers and encouragement ladies :)

  3. It was such a hard decision for me when I started blogging whether I should be a public or private blog. I wanted to have a lot of readers, but I couldn't stand not showing off my babies.

  4. I am so excited for you all. I will be praying for peace and for your daughter to be legally yours.

    Thank you for praying for Abby.

  5. I understand your conflicting emotions. It's very difficult. Worse than waiting.


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