Sunday, May 17, 2009

Jesus With Skin On...


Dear Ones:

It is just a lazy Sunday afternoon here at our house. It leaves me lots of time to ponder. I am thinking about a lot of things from today. One thing in particular was a phrase mentioned at church today.

Jesus With Skin On

How necessary this can be in our lives. I know some of my most precious memories are when I can remember someone being Jesus with Skin on to me. Those who listen, care and do not offer unsolicited advice or judge. Those who no matter how bad it gets, or you can get, still stand with you. My Pastor is always this way. He is one of the best examples of Jesus with Skin on that I can think of. I have friends like this. Faithful precious friends, that even when I think I can't possibly tell them how I am really feeling AGAIN, because they might cringe with weariness, still somehow they remain. My precious boys and my beloved husband can be compared to no one. They see me at my worst and somehow are faithful and true. I am so thankful to have these experiences. They help me glimpse my Father's love for me.

I so want to get this...you know. My Father's Love FOR ME! I wrestle. I can not tell you how many times since we have started this adoption that I have felt punished. Like Eric and I just didn't hear right, or we are financial idiots, or we have messed up with our own kids too much or etc. etc.  I have seen people bring their children home and I wonder why that is not my story. What have I done so wrong? This is a daily battle. Some days I am so stripped bare that all I can say is not my will but yours be done. Those are the good days. Others I am not so compliant and I just want to understand. 
 I am embarrassed even as I write this, that faith can be such a struggle at times. I hate that! I wish it came easy! I wish I was one of those who when I can't see or hear a thing just KNEW! I want to know MY JESUS with skin on in my HEART! Please heavenly Father reveal your true character to me. To my heart. My mind knows what it should know, but I want my heart to know You and your love for me like never before! And Father help me to be Jesus with skin on to those around me...

5 comments:

  1. Michelle,
    Your words are so awesome! How true! That is my heart cry to...to have the faith and to be Jesus' skin for other's to see HIS face more clearly. Sometimes that is a hard thing to be. I LOVE your willingness to be vulnerable and to share where you are REALLY at in life. Your willingness IS being Jesus' skin to others. Our daily walk is what people need to see! Thanks for being awesome! You are in my thoughts and prayers often. I love you and all your boys!
    Christy

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  2. Faith is a daily thing. I think you model it beautifully!

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  3. I wish I had something profound to say to you but I had eight kids in my home this weekend and I am so "done". All I can say is when I read this post, I wanted to take a road trip to your home, and give you the biggest hug that I could give a friend.

    Remember, you are "God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for you to do" Eph 2:10

    He loves us even in the broken mess that he finds us in and that my friend is truth...what he does with our "mess" is the exciting part!!

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  4. i think the people that "just know" are just like you, they don't "feel it" but they try with all of their might to fill their minds with god's Truth so that they can remind themselves of His sufficiency......don't you wish sometimes that we didn't have feelings to confuseus. we could be more robotic so that holding on to truth is easier! i wish that sometimes, but then i remember that god made me this way, with all these messy feelings, so i figure they have a good purpose too! i love how vulnerable you always are on your blog, thank you for being willing to share your true self with us/me. i TRULY believe that that vulnerability is what gives god the glory, not just getting on here and pretending that everything is wonderful and that your're always doing fine because god is god. I think it's being real in our struggles that makes god seem so much greater, stronger, more stable, unchangeable. to thanks for sharing your deep thoughts!! you rock!!

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  5. I love you my friend and you are definitely a beautiful example of Jesus with skin on to me.

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